When You Don’t Feel Like Making Music
One thing that is always just so interesting is when you have a bad day and things aren’t good: It’s hard to make music. A lot of people assume that art comes from pain and all that kind of stuff. I guess some of it does, but I think the good painful songs come only when you have perspective/ distance from the thing.
But I’m just talking about how a bad couple days at work--things will be fine but it’s just I’m in a transition and work is just hard right now-- THE POINT: the last thing I want to do is make music.
But I’m driving to a rehearsal right now and then I have gigs all weekend and even Monday, so it’s like I don’t have the choice not to make it. I’ve gotta work on it and make it.
But if I didn’t have a gig for the next couple weeks I wouldn’t be doing jack. So in this regard that’s what music is giving me right now — something that I have to do, and take my mind off all the crappy things and boo-hoo poor me. Ex.: I’m an empty nest, blah blah blah blah blah.
It is just so fascinating to me that I’ve spent so much time working on it and thinking about it, and this electronics set is this week, and then life comes at you and you kind of get this impulse to throw it away and hide a bit.
I guess it’s like writing those songs — if you could only have that latter perspective that you get when you need it the most. Like today.
But I guess that’s what the music is for. At least the music right now.
So even when I'm forced to make music, whether it's practice or creating or working on a set, I'm all in and it's meditative and then everything else disappears.
Then I just feel better.
That's what it's for, for me anyway.