I Thought I Missed a Day and Briefly Became a Terrible Person
I had a little minor panic attack this morning thinking that I did not post yesterday. I’ve been going since November 4.
The entire idea of the blog is that I should have at least one interesting thing to say musically every day. I spend so much time in my head thinking about music that this has been a really nice outlet for focused thinking, and not a bunch of—I guess—my own version of AI slop running around in there.
To say readership is low may be giving the false impression that people are actually reading this. There are a gaggle of daily readers, but this blog is very unpopular. BUT--I am a believer in the show up every day ethos. We shall see!
Not being a person that likes to explain themselves hardly ever, I like to be able to point to a body of work as my general explanation, but still it’s not quite enough when trying to explain the 'why.' As in, why would I panic if I didn’t post?
I think I am a bit of a completist, and I committed to doing this every day. So far I’ve never not been able to come up with something to say. Surely I’ve had a few mullet entries, or ones that could barely even be called entries, but I’ve also had some really great insightful ones—and by insightful I mean that when they came out of my mouth, I was pleasantly surprised.
I say mouth because, as I’ve said before, I dictate these and then edit them with a little help from our friend chat. This is a constant fight—the editing—but we can leave that for another post.
That is the why. I am learning about myself through doing this, and also sharing, and this has been really fascinating to me since November 4. I’ve become more focused in my music making and know more of what I want out of it. Quite the gift!
So if you’re reading, thank you for giving me even 30 seconds of your time on some random day when you were surely looking for something else but stumbled upon this. It is much appreciated.
Every once in a while I ask chat if I should turn this into a book, which of course it says yes because it is always like that. At this point I don’t care if it’s anything but what it is.
Thank you again.